It turns out that I had turned eclamptic and needed that baby out right then or my life, and the life of my daughter, would be in jeopardy. My dad took me to the doctor's office around 10 am or so, the doctor said I would be delivering Mackenzie within the next 24 to 48 hours, and by 11:51 she was born.
The only things I remember from that day are being wheeled over to the hospital (my dr office is next to the hospital, thank goodness), waiting on a helicopter to take off before we could get into the hospital due to safety reasons, and then throwing up (I guess that was when I was on the operating table). Then I was told that I had 3 huge seizures. My husband was rushed out of the room and a Code Blue was called and doctors came rushing in.
It's been a long journey of trying to get me back and healthy. We've been struggling with my blood pressure and just 2 days ago, I was diagnosed with cardiomyopathy. However, it is just a mild case and with the help medication, my heart can be strengthened. But with this medication, I am unable to breastfeed Mackenzie. That was so upsetting to me because that is a huge part of motherhood that I was looking forward to. To not be able to give your child food, something only you can do, was such a blow. BUT, it's not something only I can do. My sister and Drew's sister, who are breastfeeding their children, are going to donate milk for me to feed Mackenzie with. Now, that's love. If I can't give Mackenzie my milk, I would rather her get breastmilk from her aunts. And I am truly thankful. Breastmilk is the best thing I can give my sweet preemie daughter.
Mackenzie was 2 lbs 9 oz when she was born. She dropped some weight after birth, as is normal, and as of yesterday, she was back to her birth weight and almost plus 1 oz! She's growing, she's healthy and she's strong! She has her daddy's chin and nose and she is more perfect and wonderful than I could have ever imagined. I didn't know I could love anything more than I love Mackenzie.
I will post a couple pictures when I am at home. The internet at the hospital is too slow to do any uploads, lol. They will be the first time I got to see her, a few days after her birth; the first time I changed her diaper; and the second time I held her kangaroo style on my chest.
